Scariest night of my life!

Last night I stayed up late talking to my dad. At about 12:45 I stood up to go to bed and blood started gushing out of me. It was literally like a fire hydrant had been turned on. I immediately start freaking out because A) I'm dying or B) I'm miscarrying. We rushed off to the ER. By the time we got there I was soaked through with blood. 


(you would think this would make the ER staff want to HURRY!!! Oh no I sat in that waiting room hysterical for 45 minutes soaking their chair with blood!)


We finally got back into a room. They did a pelvic exam and found that my cervix was closed. A good sign but I was still losing a lot of blood. They eventually did an ultrasound...at first I couldn't see a baby on the screen, so I lose it again....the tech says hold on I'm looking at the opposite of your uterus. She then panned over to BABY where we saw a glorious heartbeat and baby doing somersaults and sucking its hands...I lose it AGAIN because A)Baby is alive and 


B) I figured out at this point that I probably wasn't dying. It turns out I have a sub-chorionic hemorrhage  where the embryo implanted into the uterus. (Basically a small tear) The Dr. said this was fairly common and the earlier it happens the better your chances are of continuing pregnancy etc...


We are not 100% out of the woods, he said there is still a slight chance of miscarriage. But he really felt confident that everything was going to be fine. Baby's heartbeat was really strong and baby was super active. I am on complete bedrest until the bleeding stops. After that I have to take it easy and can't pick Bella up until it has completely healed and is gone!
(trying telling that to an 18mos old while she's crying at your door and saying "Momma, please! Momma")


It was the worst feeling in the world thinking that I was losing my baby! I felt like I had been hit by a Mack truck. Totally helpless! I wanted to scream at every Dr. and Nurse that was taking their sweet time! In my mind the minute I walked in there they should've wheeled me to ultrasound so I could at least know everything was okay.


Needless to say we are not going to France! Of course I am beyond bummed, but I'll take my baby over France. Funny how those things happen. France isn't going anywhere and at least now we'll actually have time to save up for it rather than coming back with nearly $1000 in debt! We're going to try and go to Barabados or Hawaii in July or August for 4-5 days. It's closer not as much walking and traveling. Lots of relaxing.