I am convinced that Heavenly Father gave me the gift of singing not to please crowds of thoudands or kings and magistrates but to captivate my little on person audience, Bella. I could die a happy satisified woman knowing that I got to sing to my little baby and she smiles and cooed back at me the entire time. We had the best day today. She decided she was not going to take a nap so I gave up and we just played all day. It was the bestday ever. She's getting so animated. She giggle when you ticke her and it's the most wonderful sound ever!
She looks so much like Joe
Bella is getting so big! Yesterday she started turning over onto her side. She gets stuck there and then gets mad because 1) she can't go any further and 2) she can't roll back onto her back. It's pretty cute. She has also started scooting in circles laying on her back. it's pretty funny to watch. It looks like she's doing the watussi or something.
She looks so much like JoeBella is getting so big! Yesterday she started turning over onto her side. She gets stuck there and then gets mad because 1) she can't go any further and 2) she can't roll back onto her back. It's pretty cute. She has also started scooting in circles laying on her back. it's pretty funny to watch. It looks like she's doing the watussi or something.
She did it all by herself!I'm just glad that she's so happy! Since I had the stomach flu my milk supply has almost disappeared. I'm devastated! Bella does not want to take a bottle. She only wants to nurse so,it's been a rough few days. I'm trying everything I can to get it back up. I started taking a supplement called Fenugreek. It makes you smell like curry but it's working a little bit. If anyone has any pointers...PLEASE let me know!
Yesterday was my second day back at work. (I work on tues. from 3-6) Last week I was fine (she was sleeping when I left) Yesterday, I put down for a nap and right as I was about to walk out the door she woke up crying. It was the HARDEST thing I've ever done to have to leave and not be able to stay and comfort her. I cried the whole way to work I cried while I was there and then proceeded to cry the whole way home. I don't know how women do it! I know there are some women who have to work because of their families need. I don't know how women voluntarily work 40+ hours a week and leave their babies at daycare. I couldn't even handle 3 hours. I never thought I would feel this way. Ever! I always planned on having a very successful and busy career and just figured everything would balance out. Definitely not so. It almost scares me that I'm content to just be Bella's mom right now. It goes against every ideology I've ever had!
I filled out my FAFSA today to go back to school next year, I'm almost done I just need to go! I'm trying to decide If I still want to do a Master's of education program or not. it would take 2 years. I'm not sure. I do want to eventualy teach English or French. I'm just not sure. I took a French placement exam and it said:See Adviser. Thanks. I called and they basically have like 3-4 classes I could take. I need to see if I can take a CLEP exam to just get the credits needed by testing out and then just doing my reserch project and practicum. Hopefully I'm ready to go back. I wish I could finish my music degree but it's just too intensive for right now. I would have to be on-campus 5 days a week from 9-4. Not exactly possible right now. Eventually. I'll probably do what I can online and then see about transferring my music credits to Berklee when we move to San Fran and finish there. I guess that's what I get for double majoring eh?
well now that I've gone off on a huge tangent..I guess I'll just stop!
Yesterday was my second day back at work. (I work on tues. from 3-6) Last week I was fine (she was sleeping when I left) Yesterday, I put down for a nap and right as I was about to walk out the door she woke up crying. It was the HARDEST thing I've ever done to have to leave and not be able to stay and comfort her. I cried the whole way to work I cried while I was there and then proceeded to cry the whole way home. I don't know how women do it! I know there are some women who have to work because of their families need. I don't know how women voluntarily work 40+ hours a week and leave their babies at daycare. I couldn't even handle 3 hours. I never thought I would feel this way. Ever! I always planned on having a very successful and busy career and just figured everything would balance out. Definitely not so. It almost scares me that I'm content to just be Bella's mom right now. It goes against every ideology I've ever had!
I filled out my FAFSA today to go back to school next year, I'm almost done I just need to go! I'm trying to decide If I still want to do a Master's of education program or not. it would take 2 years. I'm not sure. I do want to eventualy teach English or French. I'm just not sure. I took a French placement exam and it said:See Adviser. Thanks. I called and they basically have like 3-4 classes I could take. I need to see if I can take a CLEP exam to just get the credits needed by testing out and then just doing my reserch project and practicum. Hopefully I'm ready to go back. I wish I could finish my music degree but it's just too intensive for right now. I would have to be on-campus 5 days a week from 9-4. Not exactly possible right now. Eventually. I'll probably do what I can online and then see about transferring my music credits to Berklee when we move to San Fran and finish there. I guess that's what I get for double majoring eh?
well now that I've gone off on a huge tangent..I guess I'll just stop!
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What a sweetie! She dies look so much like Joe. I am so not looking forward to going back to work:( Sounds like you are staying busy. sorry for the randomness of my comment, I'm typing one handed.
Don't worry, I always have typos now from typing one-handed! I'm embarassed to say I'm an English major! I shouldn't complain, when you have to go so far and for a whole day! That's why your friends are here!
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