It's Taken me 8 1/2 mos.to freak out!

So, I finally freaked out!
I just felt so overwhelmed and unprepared yesterday! I was going over all the things we still need and adding up the dollar signs and felt like I got hit by a semi. How do people afford babies! I guess that's what showers and gift registries are for, but seriously who would've thought it cost so much to bring something so tiny into the world! This is really dumb, but, I was laying in bed after tossing and turning all night and the thought came: I can't just get up and have a bowl of cereal when I want to after the baby is born! Yeah, really stupid, but, it made me feel so nauseaous. AHHH.
I lay awake thinking what are we going to do when I'm on maternity leave for 3 mos. it's going to be so tight. Barely making it tight. I know deep down that Heavenly Father isn't going to let us sink, but, I still freak out. I know if someone else were telling me this I'd tell them have faith, pay your tithing and do your best and the Lord will make up what you can't. I guess it's easier said than done.
This is apparently my trial of faith. Heavenly Father is probably thinking, "Will you stop whining! It's getting annoying!"
Back to my day long pity party. I just pray that I'll be enough. That I'll be able to give her all of me. It's funny I totally thought I knew how to take care of a newborn I mean I've done it before. Somehow the fact that she's mine is seriously intimidating. I freaked out because I didn't know how warm I should dress her or which blankets were going to be either to cool or too warm! It's just the silliest things but I was seriously having a BAD DAY! I know in the end it will all work out and everything will fall into place.
For now I think I just need a really big piece of CHEESECAKE!